HuiMin

My Name is HuiMin
Born on the date 11 November 1994 (:
Adore the colors Pink very much :D
Loves the Piano & jesus stays in my heart :D
Deeply single|ATTACHED to Tan Tuan Wei on 26122008

Music

"男人男人，多希望你是好人，
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼。 "

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Temptations

"what do you want from me"
♥LOVE
1 month
2 month
3 month
4 month
5 month
6 month
7 month
8 month
9 month
10 month
11 month
12 month
1 year
FOREVER


♥Animals
Puppy on my birthday :D
Hamster


♥Gagets
Camera
Pink Phone
Touch Screen Phone
Mp3
Pink Laptop
ipod touch apple ((:


♥academic
get top 20 for class in MYE 2009
get top 15 in class position for EOY 09
dont sms ppl during class lesson ><
Get <12 for L1R4 O levels 2010
Get <17 for L1R5 O Levles 2010
Get top 10 in Class For MYE 2010


♥Fashion
Pink Jacket
new bag
pink shoes
TRANSPARENT BAG ^^
new wallet to fit all my cards and wont be so thick =.=
New pink wallet
Backpack for school (:

♥Outings
celebrate my 15th birthday with dar and dearest friends (:
have an enjoyable birthday
Another Shopping spree with huiqi laogong
Play dota with qi again (:
Go countdown someday (:

Tagboard

Linksboard

Meet the people I love♥

arranged according to birthdays :D

JAN
08 Jun Xian (cousin)
14 Samsom (N349)
16 Mummy (Yx mama)
21 Hui Wen (cousin)
30 Tricia (HGP)

FEB
09 Angel (cousin)
12 Jun Yao (didi)

MARCH
10 Daddy
11 Jia Qi tw sis
18 Siti

APRIL

MAY
08 Serafina
12 Jie ying (HGP)
20 Jolene.K

JUNE
03 Jia Hui
16 Yu Xiang
24 Jun Jie

JULY
05 Lena
30 Yu Ru

AUG
11 Joleen.L
13 Jia Wei (Jia Hui's didi)

SEP
15 poorathy
23 Ambika

OCT
11 Anvis
28 Hui Qi :D

NOV
01 Shavidya
05 Adrian (cousin)
11 Me
14 Kassandra

DEC
06 Dati
25 Tuan Wei Dar

Pastentries

Are you sure you want to turn back the time and read about my past?

♥ October 2008
♥ November 2008
♥ December 2008
♥ January 2009
♥ February 2009
♥ March 2009
♥ April 2009
♥ May 2009
♥ June 2009
♥ July 2009
♥ August 2009
♥ September 2009
♥ October 2009
♥ November 2009
♥ December 2009
♥ January 2010
♥ February 2010
♥ March 2010
♥ April 2010
♥ November 2010

Creditorials

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Sunday, June 28, 2009

Lets blog :D

26 june
went to work. came home and went to ikea w/ mama and saw dar with his parents there and xiao lan became his name :D

27 june
morning was supposed to meet dar at the basketball court but got people so i went to bus stop to wait and me so blur today made him wait 30 mins. sorry dar. dunno what has gotten into me =.=
then we went my house i bath and changed and went out to gain city. closed. so we went to hougang mall makan. actually bought ice milo only. then bus back to gain city. it was the wrong gain city. sorry again i really very blur ...
Then bus to bedok.
from bedok walk around then bus to vivo and he forced me to eat ...
played at the water and enjoyed ourselves and sat down till mr and mrs lau came with isaac.
had lots of fun today.
went to pizza hut eat and my da sao head pain. ran all the way to vivo to buy and almost fell down knocking onto ppl =.=
then came back paid bill and dar ask me whr i go. actually habourfront got=.=
i still very blur ...
dar send me off and he went home.
thanks for everything today :D

28 june
woke up and now using com.
wanted go play absketball but dad at home so cannot =.=
later got work....
changed blog song. the first one.

HoobaStank The Reason

:D the song i loveeee with guitarand i wont find it noisy :D
Dar promise will go and learn this song and sing for me when my birthday comes which is in 5 months and less... =.=
137 days left :D hahahhahah

Lyrics:


I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Labels: The reason is You :D

Friday, June 26, 2009

First of all, Happy Sixth Monthsary to My Dearest Wei Wei Tan Yellow elephant Dar Dar :D
Thanks for all the things you have done for me through this six months :D
Listening to me rant all my problems to you, although it has nothing to do with you but you still helped me solve it without a single complain ^^ xie xie / thanks a lot. i dunno how many thank you can replace with what i really feel. LOL.
Meeting you and falling in love with you is my worlds' greatest blessing and desire and i dunno what to say le larh. =.= You know what i mean right? :D
Really thanks for being there, seen me cry, smile, cheer, get crazy and get irritated. :D
But you're always there and never really get angry and throw your temper at me and never scolded me although i do make a lot of stupid and silly mistakes that sometimes do irritated you and make u angry (perhaps) ^^
You're a very wonderful boyfriend :D
Daily i see couples around me i know quarreling, Breaking up, i always wonder will this ever happen to me? How will i face it? But now i know this will never happen ^^ We will go on with life happily :D yea? :D

Secondly, yesterday was a fun day :D
Dar and me meet at the basketball court near my house there at 9. we played till 10 then walked to hougang point to eat. Slacked at my old house there then walked back to hougang point and met jer. walked to bowen using SHORTCUT and met jane there.
Brought them to my house there and buy water then i put my bag and then went to court and played. until 12 plus like that i think, went back home cos i need to bath and change. then we bus to hougang mall and mrt to plaza sing. walk walk play play and then go makan at LJS.After that mrt back to tampines and Jer had his haircut ^^
so dam funny. LOL. then he went to toilet make his hair. so long so me and jane decided to run away LOL.
In the end met up with them i buy my comb then we go century square arcade play. i went to play basketball again :Dwent into round 3 and died. so happy. LOL. then say bye bye to the couple and me and dar walk to holy trinty church. I was half dead like wht he said? LOL
he send me there and said bye bye then went for counselling. i wanted to slp le lor. =.=
LOL then went home . tired.
and i through the counsellor, i remembered something about me. myself.
When i was in mama's stomach, at 5 months, she went for a scan and realised there was something in my brain and then went for a second scan after treatment, the thing was gone but not all was gone. that is why after i was born i had so many problems.
Meaning i was not meant to be born? i really have no idea. i dun wan care so much.
Die jiu die lor. God made me and he can let me die and let me live as and when he like ^^

thirdly, went blog hopping and realized i was tagged quizzes... tons...
doing them all at one shot. people tagged, goodluck :D


quiz 1 :

the letter (A):
- Are you available? Attached ^^
- What is your age? 14++
- What annoys you? irritating people


the letter (B):

- Do you live in a big house? 4 room flat.
- When is your birthday? 11 November 1994(11111994) remember :D


the letter (C):

- What's your favorite chocolate? i like all except dark ones :D and i love black forest ones :D
- Who's your crush? No crush. One and only dar dar wei wei tan :D
- When was the last time you cried? two days ago? "cried" cos i just woke up from my sleep.


the letter (D):

- Do you daydream? Yes! a lot
- What's your favorite kind of dog? golden retriever :D
- What day of the week is it? Friday. I keep thinking sunday. LOL


the letter (E):

- How do you like your eggs? Half boiled :D
- Have you ever been in the emergency room? yes D: LOL
- What's the easiest thing ever to do?Sleep


the letter (F):

- Have you ever flown in a plane? Yes ^^
- Do you use fly swatters? Smack people face :D
- Have you ever used a foghorn?Wad lai de =.=

the letter (G):

- Do you chew gum? duh~
- Are you a giver or a taker? giver
- Do you like gummy candies? no...
- Whats your favorite number? 11
- Do you prefer night over day? Yes but mostly i will be tired and sleep=.=


the letter (O):

- Whats your one wish? can dun one xD. Get rich and be able to bless others, do well in studies and last long with dar dar :D
- Are you an only child? no.. got didi and kor
- Do you wish this was over? YES


the letter (P):

- What are you most paranoid about? cats ! and creepy crawlies =.= DUN SCARE ME WITH THEM
- What are your pet peeves? what lai de =.=
- Whats a personality trait you look for in people? smiles (true ones)


the letter (Q):

- Whats your favorite quote? zzzzzzzzz
- Does time seem to pass quickly or slowly?Normal?
- Are you quick to judge people? Still okay. but can change impression of them too ^^


the letter (R):

- Do you think you're always right? Nope. i know i was at fault at times
- Do you watch reality tv? what is that =.= my vocab not good lar.
- Whats a good reason to cry? for fun? LOL


the letter (S):

- Do you prefer sun or rain? Rain. cooler can sleep :D
- Do you like snow? YES. but i am scared of cold >< - What's your favorite season? Winter ^^ the letter (T): - What time is it? 9:39am - What time did you wake up?854am - When was the last time you slept in a tent? Primary 6 camp the letter (U): - dont want post the questions - the letter (V): - Whats the worst veggie?i dun like veggie. i only eat a few. i dun eat too fresh and over cooked de - Where do you want to go on vacation? korea, Japan, england ^^ america. a lot - Where was your last vacation to? last year to china :D the letter (W): - What's your worst habit? Scolding people xD but i am trying to control :D - Where do you live?Serangoon - What's your worst fear? *looks up* see urself the letter (X): - Have you ever had an x-ray? Yes - Have you seen the x-games? i dunno what tht - Do you own a xylophone?i dun own. but i plays it the letter (Y): - Do you like the color yellow?YES :D yellow elephant dar ^^ - What year were you born in? 1994 :D - Whats one thing you yearn for?yearning for MONEY =.= LOL nothing lar :D the letter (Z): - Whats your zodiac sign? Dog - Do you believe in the zodiac? still okay. quiz 2
I DUN WAN DO QUIZ LE!!!!!!!! PEK CHEK LARH...

Labels: happy 6th monthsary

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Tan Wei Wei Dar , here's ur reply for my special post as promised :D
I am backie home & u are impatient.
Thanks for taking the challenge to write something NICE and here is something nice about u too :D

You are not as normal as u think :D u are skinny :D
But always thinking u are normal
Always thinking u will grow tall but ... lets see ^^
U got no Stomake and is very jealous :D
U got weird digestive system cos u dun get hungry ^^
Want more? :D

since u stop so i shall too :D
Tan Wei Wei is a wonderful boyfriend to me :D(have more confidence in urself ^^)
Always loved the wonderful times with him :D
Tan Wei Wei is plain lazy to count so he just copied my pm that is today is the 181th day together and 2 more days to 6th month :D
Thanks for agreeing to come out with me whenever u can :D
hearing my long rants and letting me scold u ^^ haha
Always being the blur me will as usual be blur larh :D
Thanks for taking care of me ^^
Love you lots Tan Wei Wei Yellow elephant Dar Dar :D

Today me and Dar went to Goats farm ^^ then haw par villa. lazy to rant on :D
but enjoyed myself ^^


My dearest Vk :D
Dun jealous larh :D
hahha i treat u as a sis :D really ^^
call me up and one day we shall go out okay? :D
sch reopening le. i may not be free that often le.

Labels: Tan Wei Wei Dar :D

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

I am lazy to blog lar. tired lar. cca canceled tmr so me and Tan Wei Wei dar dar going out :D
Very sian. Got intro a web called my year book my xin yi sister :D
I dunno how to use but learning.
All people any how any how add me.
LOL
Then met this guy.
Talk to me.
Then add me in msn and realised i was attached.
LOL
Then he wanted to know whether my sch got chio bu =.=
i say got.. cockroach :D
then he was retarded confess to cockroach =.=
then he keep saying: I GOT NO GIRLFRIEND =.= zzzz
like my problem.
Then he was like: u got boyfriend lar hor.
i was like yes ^^
he was like: so sad.
i : why lei? i very happy leh :D
him: nothing...
LOL =.=
retarded...
I am blessed with Tan Wei Wei :D hahahah

sch is reopening and i am going to work hard... (i gueess) hope i wun slpxD
I am aiming for a C for amath
chinese A1 as usual
Eng A2
Math A2
ScienceB4
Humans B4
one target higher for everything only chinese remains :D
hope i do well :D
wish me luck and goodluck people :D

EXPRESS IS SIAN SIAN SIAN!!!!!!!!!

Labels: Tan Wei Wei :D

Monday, June 22, 2009

Quiz for today !

A. Anvis
1) Do you love this person? Yes. :)
2) Is this person your enemy? Studies enemy :D
3) Is this person taller than you? NOWAY :D

B. Bernice
1) What do you really think of this person? Kind ?
2) What’s their favourite color? idk.
3) Ever danced with them? No.

C. Crystal
1) Do you like this person? Yes my mei mei :D
2) Where did you meet this person? Band Junior.
3) How old is she/he? 13? :D

D.daddy
1) How long have you known him/her? every since that day i was born.
2) Biggest regret? Trusting him...

E. Evelyn Tan
1) Have you met their parents? Mother :D
2) Worst thing about this person? emo emo emo hahaha
3) Best thing about this person? too many to say.

F. Faye Lai
1) Have you ever dated this person? Nope
2) When is the next time you will see him/her? when sch reopens.
3) Do you go to school with them?nope haha

G. Gary
1) Are they a good listener? not sure
2) Have you ever lied to this person? yes ^^
3) Is this person nice? yes :D

H. Hui Yan
1) What year are they in? 1996
2) Is he/she your best friend? ok ok? :D
3) Ever done something illegal with this person? nope :D

I. Isaac
1) What is this person’s favourite food? idk
2) Where did you meet this person?through dar?
3) Do you trust them? :D idk :D

J. Jeremy lau
1) Do they have any siblings? Nope
2) Do you know their favourite song? weirdo w/ no sense of music haha kidding
3) What would you do if they confessed they liked you? He wun ^^.

K. Kelvin(uncle)
1) How old were you when you first met? 0 yrs old :D
2) How did you meet? he's my uncle
3) Ever danced with this person? NNONONON

L. Linda
1) What would you do if you had never met this person? Gove a hug :D
2) Do you like him/her? yea
3) Would you go to Disney World with this person? Yes if she pay for me ^^

M. Maggie
1) Is this person older than you?yea
2) Is this person single? Yes
3) How many times do you communicate with them in a week? almost daily :D

N.Nixi
1) Is this person your boyfriend/girlfriend? No
2) Have you seen this person cry? No.
3)Do you know this person’s middle name? No.

O. Obama
1) Are you related? Nope :D
2) Could you live with this person? unless miracle :D
3) Do you believe this person is gay? maybe? ;O

P. Pearlyn (?) Tan
1) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? Err, i think yes.
2) How about a sleepover with them? Yes.
3) Does this person have a job? Nah.

Q. NIL.
1) Does this person drink alcohol? No.
2) Have you seen this person dance? No.
3) where do they work ? Actually I don't know.

R. Revinesh
1) Have you heard this person sing? yes
2) Do you think this person will repost this? nope.
3) Whats one thing you would change about this person? nothing

S.Shermeen
1) Is this person taller than you? nope.
2)you enjoy spending time with him/her?yea
3) Do they live close to you? not really

T. Tan Tuan Wei :D
1)Would you do anything for him/her? Yes :D
2) Have you been to his/her house? Yes ^^
3) Does this person eat shit? YES!!!!! hahaha i am jus kidding :D

U. Uncle william
1) Is this person in a relationship? married
2) Do you know where he lives? tampines
3) What colour hair does this person have?idk LOL

V. Vanessa Kang :D
1) Do you see this person alot? used to
2) When did you meet her/him? Church
3) Is this person your friend? Yes

W. Wei Xiang
1) Is this person quiet or loud? Loud!
2) Name a friend that both of you are close too? Tuan wei dar :D
3) What color eyes does this person have? black

X. Xin Yi.
1)Why are you friends with him/her? we're cousin :D
2) Have you ever gone anywhere with them? Duh
3) What is one thing you would change about them? SHe's nice alrdy :D

Y. Yu Xiang
1) Does this person wear make-up? yea ^^ as if :D
2) Does this person play any instruments? recorder :D
3) What is their favourite sport? staring at me :D

Z. Zhi Yi
1) Does this person have MSN/AIM? Yes.
2) Ever gone shopping with him/her? No :((((((
3) Does this person have any special skills.?Play audi well :D

10 people to do this:
1.tan Tuan wei dar :D
2.jer
3.Isaac
4.Yu xiang dong
5.Eunice
6.Xin Yi
7.Jessica
8.Faye
9.Jolene
10.Shermeen

first, happy birthday to evelyn :D
thanks for being there when i nid u darling. happy 14 birthday :D

second. sch is strating and i haven done my homework =.=zzzz

third tmr i start work at 9-5 =.=

fourth, wed got band from 10 - 5

fifth, thurs got basketball with dar and jer w/ his dar :D

seventh, dar got a new nick from me:D weiwei :D hahaha

eight, 4 more days :D

nineth, cheer up wonderful person who smsed me last night till midnight.
Love ya lots and believe in urself. u are doing great ^^

lastly, i MA LEARNING MY THIRD LANGUAGE SOON -KOREAn ^^

FORUTH LANGUAGE IS MALAY AND FATIMAH DARLING IS GOING TO REVISE WITH ME OVER AGAIN.
cos i totally forget le >,<

Labels: LOVE YA wonderful bananan weiwei boyfriend ^^

Friday, June 19, 2009

woke up at 8 by dar sms :D
Its the first time we are going out ever since he came back from Msia :D
went to bath and then got ready.
at 8.45am he reach my house and i was reading some chinese book :D
we bus to ang mo kio. walk walk and mrt to dohby gaut :D
Went to eat at burger king.
Then went to slack at top storey and then bought drag me to hell ticket.
befire that was playing at arcade :D
basketball again. score 180++ improvement but not very good D: LOL.
Went in and the show was super scary.
I got scared D:
LOL
Dar insisted that i scream when i think i did not. LOL
Then we mrt to city hall suntec walk walk :D
after that walk to bugis :D
Went to eat at ajisen.
Walk walk then mrt to tampines and walk walk and then we took bus 81 to serangoon interchange.
my bus came and i gave him the card i made for him :D
its the first time i did this kind of card for anyone :D
hope he'll like it :D
went home bought hp top up card and updated bank book. realised this month i am spending a lot but nvm :D
next month start saving again le.
LOL.

Labels: i love you forever

Thursday, June 18, 2009

today was very sian so i decided to go out. but dunno where to go so decided to bring didi out.
went to dohby gaut pizza hut and we spent a total of $18.53 there.
went to arcade spent another $4 there.
mrt to city hall and walk to funan and he wanted to see his psp things so he rushed and met isaac and dar there. and it was so malu cos didi was dashing the road and i wanted to pull him to stop him in the end i kana pulled by him =.=
after that walk one round and mrt to tampines.
went to arcade spent another $5 there.
met mama and went to yoshinoya to eat and spent $16 there.
p.s/ i treated everyone today =.=
about $50 spent.
walked to church of holy trinity for some talk. reach there was so empty and realised i was trick.
it was a one to one counsellin for me =.=
she was (i forgot her name) mama's counseller.
she spoke to me. very nice. and i am going back next thurs for more counselling.
my counselling session will be education cos she says i uses my brainy more =.=
i dunno how to explain lar...
tmr going out with dar :D

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Went out celebrating w/ dong head and it was really fun :D
went to house at 11 am and reach there, june june never bark but was at the door awaiting for my arrival =.=
i came in and she jumped onto me and i screamed as usual then xi guan le... lOL
walk to compass and mrt to bugis.
walk walk and shop shop and thanks mama for the treat of the expensive meal.
Walk to iluma and play the arcade and walk walk :D
walk to bugis junction and mrt to plaza sing...
Went to eat swensens and mama treat again :D
thanks a lot :D
play arcade until hand pain.
shop shop and went into my fav shop :D
super pinky korean shop :D yay :D
went home and now blogging.
Buying present for dong is easy cos he loves what ever i give him :D
as long as the thoughts counts :D

Labels: once again u were there :D

Yesterday staff meeting end until very late so i left first.
woke up at 9 and later going out to celebrate with dong...
On com, mama was talking to me and i did not felt like replying her so i kept quiet.
Until she was fed up and come in and whack me.
She ask me what was my problem.
I kept quiet and said nothing.
I know you people might think i am rude i dun care cos u dun even understand my situation.
Many people will advice me to forgive and forget. Like i said, you wun be able to feel how i feel.
Mama wanted me to thrash things out so i did and we started screaming at each other until i had really enough.
I dun wan to go on any further.
She said she dun understand why i am still living and not dead.
So u really wan me dead?
I will really fullfill your wish one day.
i told her, you last time treat me no good now then treat so good. alrdy no use.
the hurt is alrdy there.
i really dun wish to go home today...
i thought everytime was fine....

My lifestyle is going to be diffferent. dad called. and i may... i hop and i wish i can move out.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Happy birthday dong :D
The day have reached for you :D
Thanks for being my friend and i shall make ur birthday a special one :D
dun forget our outing tomorrow yea :D
hahaa....

FInally in 15 hours dar is coming back :D
Yesterday i thought everything went out well.
But reached home, turned out into a family disaster.
Dad wanted me to quit my job.
He said he dun need me to suport the family.
i said i supporting myelf.
he super angry. said he has the ability to support me.

My dearest dad, if you have the ability to support me, then why for the past two months, your dearest wife never give me money at all?
you think $50 can last me how long?
i have to buy...
bus concession: $26.50
top up phone: $25-$27
top up ez link: $10
monthly meals: $120 _i am trying to cut down_

is $50 enough?
I have enough... i tried to stay strong ytd.
i controlled my tears but it failed but at least i never cry in front of him...
Knowing your situation very clear.
We aint reach anymore father....
You used to earn ten thousand per month or more.
situation has changed. Company bankrupt resulting you to opted for bankruptcy but you did not.
Why cant you just save a bit?
STop that much of smoking and drinking.
They cost money too.
DUn promise to give us money to buy what so ever when you cant even settle your own life.
By working, i save your money but i doubt you are saving too.
I bet your salary is 5 times of mine and i have the ability to save $50-$100 per month or even more.
Why cant you?
and i am saving in two accounts too.
Enables me to control well.
You and your wife should stop spending so much.
I dun need you to buy anything for me.
WHy?
Once bitten twice shy.
I dun want when the time comes, you say what i am the one who spend all your money.
Save up your bloody money.
I wont get touch.
No my heart is dead with you
give me a break

dun ruin my bloody day pls...


yesterday after closing, albert sang the reason is you with his guitar. emily our head manager sings well... omg... maybe he use this method to woo his wife de. LOL...
Sooo nice lor... but his voiced cracked a little.

Labels: come back faster D: crying out for you D:

Monday, June 15, 2009

My parents have been speaking to me and all i answer is by nodding or shaking my head.
Mama said this:
我已经很客气的跟你说话。。。你不要只点头摇头。。。以前的你不是这样的。。以前的你跑去哪里了？
And to my DEAREST MOTHER
以前的卧室可以让你虐待。。让你打。。。现在的我长大了。。。不再是以前你的出气筒。。。以前的我死掉了。。。虽然现在和以前没什么不同。。。我依然都没说话。。。但现在我快乐多了。。。我不再担心回到家有会被大还是什么。我学会了。。。i am born to be loved not to be abused.
Stop talking to me. I am alrdy confused. I am not going to ask for opinion from me cos 9 out of 10 will ask me to forgive them. Nobody, NOBODY is able to put themselves in my shoes DIRECTLY and feel the pain and what so ever. So please dun give me the crap or what so ever.
I know life has a reason for things to happen this way and only god knows the reason... i need time to settle things one by one...
Arghhh just give me more time...

Labels: 1 more day ^^

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Things are happening so randomly.
My family matters was chucked off to one side and now it became to maggie.
Same issue.
Maggie: i know u wun be able to see what i wrote here but i will still write.
Stay strong. You and i are in the same situation.
Just that they are not ur real parents. Mine is.
Be strong and brave.
You dun let me go girls home so you should be fair & not go too.

People... I am trying to survive and smile.
People around me notice a change in me.
Even my managers too.
They spoke to me about why i am not smiling.
I am changing back.
But why?
I cant think well.

Dar is overseas. I got no one to talk to.
Maggie is with a problem.
I dun wan to bother Vk or anvis.
always seeking them i feel so bad.
Out of a sudden.
I feel alone. Yes True friends are so limited.
Dong have his own problems too.
I shall stay strong and depend on myself.

On my way home i teared again.
My eyes are just like water tap.
on and off.

I thought i was goign to live in a heck care manner in this family.
this house.
But why is it when i started to heck care then you people start to care?
I am confuse.
Everything seems so fake.
Its just like a dream.
I dun wan you to be so nice to me anymore.
I just want to turn 18 fast and leave this bloody house.
So its no use.
I feel fake i seem fake.
Am i?

really my brain is useless i aint thinking.
I am turning crazy
I am really sorry tonight to a bunch of people for my fucking attitude =.=

Jolin, Isaac and many many people.
I am really crazy fucked up and confused.
Sorry for the attitude....

Labels: 2 more days.

Yesterday celebrity weekend wasn't as exciting as expected. I only enjoyed F.I.R :D
Met jer and Isaac at 4 p.m
Jer came first and the first thing he said to me was not get well soon but: hi half dead =.=
LOL.
Then came isaac.
They ate and i after that we left.
Waiting for train to tanah merah, saw anvis :D
Then sat with cell group and i went to take mask with wan xin.
Wore the mask through service and of cos i did take off lar.
cant breath with the mask =.=
After service told nixi need to go and realised no keys so went to airport and saw cell group there.
bought poppeye and finally after 2 days i ate something.
I dun care whether it will worsen. I am hungry....
After that mrt home and saw vissy again.
We chatted with the guys as jer wanted to know more about _______ :D
hahahah....
I told him my frank opinion that i dun really ________ ________.
:D

I told myself i wanted 1 week rest and time is up.
I have come to a conclusion.
I shall give frank opinion and not judge.
I shall tell truth and no lies unless necessary xD
I aint perfect.
Nobody is.
So there is no reason for me to judge and i shall live life to the fullest :D
I shall not care about the negative comments people give of me.
I will try to love people :D

I am open.
I am hyper
I talk a lot
super open with EVERYONE.
its my attitude my character
i have an attitude. i just dun find it a problem :D so i dun have attitude problem :D
I can go on ranting to you until i am tired but u can just simply ignore me :D
i dun care...

Labels: 2 more days ^^ come faster T.T

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Yesterday
Left my house at 12p.m
took bus to ang mo kio cos i really dunno whr to go
then bus to changi but bus halfway really dam sick.
cannot take it.
alighted at bedok.
wanted to go bedok polyclinic but dunno whr.
Then rmb isaac blog got state he went to tampines polyclinic so sms him to ask whr it was.
Took bus 67.
Isaac no reply =.=
Ask jer instead and it was a FAST reply ^^
Reach tampines cant find it =.=
ask jer again.
And it was a late reply but still it helped ^^
Reach inside and here it was:

Nurse:for the pass 7 days, you have... fever?
Me:yes
Nurse:cough
Me: yes
Nurse: Flu
me: yes
Nurse: soar throat?
Me; yes
Nurse; * stares at me* how about going overseas
me: no

she gave me a mask and made me wear it =.=
then ask me go to fever clinic level 2 but use the behind lift.
dun use with other patient like i got some virus =.=

wait for 45 mins before it was my turn =.=
went in, doctor talk to me.
took my temperature... 37.5
gave me medicine and ask em buy normal panadol to eat can le.
went out, walk around and sat at century square the chair there
really dam bored and sick to tears.
i have been coughing the whole day until my chest pain le.
I haven eat anything for the whole day
walk around then meet vk at 6 at expo.
then we went walking around and queue up for seats.
got our seats and i took my temperature.
37.7
anvis came just nice giving me a care bear ^^
funshine...
i should be hating it for some sort of reason but now i am beginning to love it very much ^^

left during the break of bible study and took 24 home and change to 76
reach home at 11
ate durian cos dad bought it.
i know i sick cant eat but if i tell my family i sick i sure get scolded =.=
so just eat and drink more water lor =.=
and i realised my blogskin is not viewable in IE =.=
and YESTERDAY NIGHT.... I RECEIVED A SMS FROM DAR ^^

i realised i became very dependant on dar alrdy...
Without him, ia m very sian...
=.=
usually i would work or go cca or go out with friends and when i am free i would go out with him, making my schedule packed and no free time for alone.
This few days i will be alone =.=
and it is very sian de lor =.=
so come back fast fast barh ...

Labels: 3 more days

Friday, June 12, 2009

Today supposingly going to work. but i am sick D; flu, cough and soar throat with slight fever.
And i over slept but lucky i got dear friends who took over my shift so its a matter of whether i want to go or not.
But i am not going ...
LOL
i think i use com a while then i go out le.
I really cannot tolerate staying at home.
Dar is away at malaysia.
D:
I am super bored w/o him larhh
Come back quickly...
D:

Here's my schedule:
Sat: chuch
sun: full shift
mon: full shift
tue: full shift
wed: go out w/ yuxiang
thur: off
fri: 11-5
sat: off
sun: full shift

Labels: 4 more days D: cry cry

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Thanks for all the lovely things you've done ^^ the lovely posts u've given to me^^
Hao gang dong ♥
You've made specific changes in my life.
changes that i have never expected.
never expected from any single soul.
Loved me for who i am. Gave me the love that i have never expected from someone else.
Made me love you till i never expected myself to do so...
I love you ♥
forever :D

Labels: 我是真的愛你

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

morning woke up by Dar's sms ^^
Met him at my house there de bus stop then take bus to Ang mo Kio then mrt to dohby gaut :D
walk around and ate at macdonald.
Watch the uninvited... Quite okay to me.
Got shocked a few times xD
after movie we walked to orchard and mrt to jurong east.
Shopped at IMM.
ate at Mos burger ^^
Then bus to mrt then mr tto woodlands. Bus to tampinese and we two fell asleep.
Oh... DAR TOOK MY UNGLAMS =.=
zzzzzzzz....
i have been bugging him to lend me his phone to delete =.=
reach tampines walk walk then bus home.
Dar send me home and I PRESSED THE BUTTON ^^ only he will understand :D hahahaha....
reached home and here i am :D

My wonderful mother is finally crazy and is consulting a doctor now.
Everyone is bringing out the past crazy things she have done to us.
Of course me and Kor will never forget.
The nightmares we had.
Being caned till our skin ripped open w/ blood flowing out.
being get our head banged on the wall / glass table.
After so many years of hidden fear, we could not take it anymore and voiced out.
She is finally consulting a doctor.
Doctor dun dare give her medicine first.
My mother will get into IMh sooner or later.
Why is my life so ripped aparT?
Why am i always living in fear?
I am tired.
Maybe i am just like what anvis said.
I am a tiny little coward trying to act brave.


i very lazy reply tags larh xD

Labels: button :D

Monday, June 8, 2009

today went put with cg.
then after that jiamei, jia qi and heidi went off leaving me and anvis and nixi. went to taka and went into art friends shop. i decided to wander off myself. a group of guys- 8 people went in also.
They after wandering, i went to a corner to find coloured paper. End up one of them followed me and here's the FREAKY conversation...

The guy: hi
Me:*looks up(shocked)*
the guy: my friend the white one wans to be ur friend
me: * giving him a blur look and smile a bit, shocked*
the guy: *pointing to his friend* the white one.. can?
me: * turn and look at his friend still blur, his friend stand so far, i nv wear specs cant see =.= *
his friend: people got boyfriend alrdy larh. see her shirt: I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND. dun ask alrdy larh. i so paiseh
The guy: can give ur number
me: stares at him, totally freaked out.

then i walked away.
faster go find anvis.
Omg. anvis keep disturbing me.
Although such cases do happen to me, but this time is a big group..
totally freaked out.
Anvis was like, call tuan wei come down =.=
zzz stupid anvis. LOl
went to vk house, had so much talking and went home =.=
zzz JEREMY LAU, RELAX AND CHILLLLL =.=
LOL

Saturday, June 6, 2009

I am so random. came across this stupid website ask me a lot of question... shall post some here...


my dream birthday:
Able to celebrate with a bunch of people around 5-15. all odd numbers so when including me, it will be even so no one will be left out. able to tolerate birthday pranks(e.g throwing me into the sea =.= ; birthday smash; and so on...)
No present also can ^^ i just wan the sincerity...
No conflicts when quarreling.
I dun wan to plan my birthday ^^
Big hugs from people ^^
thats all. simple hor?
LOl.

My dream car:
It shall be a black 8 seater ^^
the top able to open and close ^^
wonderful cushioned seats with my melody head rest ^^ LOL...

my dream house:
Wonderful big house with 3 stories ^^
a room for children to play.
A room for kbox
a room for kitchen
a room to study
a room to party.
a room to slp.
rooms for guests
3 bathrooms.
swimming pool located ^^
billiard room ^^
haha...

Friday, June 5, 2009

hi people, got miss me? LOL
haha...
okay... lets blog from the day i went to camp.
I will miss out parts. but the main point is about some reatrded.

tues 02/06/09
Okay, went to rivervale plaza at 6.30a.m
eunice came at 6.59a.m
followed by shermeen, lena and yu ru.
Went to report.
Pack and went for amath remedial.
came back,band was playing whacko.
after that lunch.
After lunch was sectionals.
then got foot drills =.=
after drills, sibei tired.
queue for drinks.
urooj was in front of eunice who was in front of me.
T was behind me.
t is a sec 1 boy who got some stupid hyperactive illness i shall elaborate more later
I was super tired and do not wish to talk so i usually will say: SHUT Up but this time i said: pls keep quiet.
t: i also not talking to u
Me: *sian diao*
T: * continue talking*
eunice: pls shut up
T: dont interupt me when i am talking,
this time i was really pissed off.
i shouted at him to shut up and i said this: pls respect others when u want others to respect u.
He went back, told fain and almost everyone this: i will respect u.
I was super fucked up.
angry till i want to cry alrdy.
Night amazing race, left 2 more groups. i prayed hard i was not w/ him and YES!!!!!!!!!!!! I WASNT W/ HIM ^^

wed 030609
went amath and had lunch again and blah blah.
After that, afternoon take temperature.
t extra. come percussion section.
Keep talking to me.
Calling my name.
I was super irritated, take half way i jumped up and screamed and went forward to sit.
he shouted at me from the back, i could not take it anymore and cried.
After that, he keep sayin what grandfather thing.
insult me DUN insult my grandfather la!!!!!!!!
fuck... cheebye....
after that at night quarrel again..

040609 thurs.
i did not want to talk to him after so many 'counselling" from the committee...
Crystal my new sec1 junior also nice nice talk to me.
Went up the stairs w/ crystal and then he came and said: u wan me to apologise for walking the same stairs as u?
I was super fucked up, i keep quiet.
he disturb crystal then crystal ask him shut up.
he scold back.
this time i cannot take it anymore.
i shouted and we quarreled.
I cant take it.
i screamed again.
ernest and fain trying to stop us
i really going crazy and i cried again.
sufiyah could not take it and scolded him and he kept quiet.
thanks sufiyah.
Ms loh counselled again =.=

fri050609
last day of camp.
got heart to heart talk.
mdm dewi questioned both of us in front of the band.
he explained and he was totally lying.
he said thurs he wanted to apologise.
EVELYN WAS THERE AND KNEW HE WAS LYING COS WHEN U WAN TO SAY SORRY U CALL THE PERSON NAME SOFTLY OR U SHOUT DE?
NINABU!!!! ....
STOP LYING CAN?
almost the people who was there wanted to laugh can?
he insulted my ah gong still say he was saying his own ah gong =.=
fucker.

i seriously hate him.
performance, still wan suck up to me.
no use de.
I WILL FORevER HATE U.
never will i be ur friend.
we will just be either strangers or enemies.
ERNEST ONG, DUN U RECOMMEND HIM TO PERCUSSION OR U WUN SEE ME IN BAND AGAIN!!!!!!!!!
stupid ernest.
LOL

i really want to thank the wonderful sec 1 girls for cheering em up and eunice chew and jolie too.
And special thanks to sufiyah.
really thanks for standing up for me.

i know i was wrong to had this attitude to scold him but its the first impression.
from the bottom of my heart, i really thinks he is using his illness as an excuse.
forget it.
i will hate this sucker forever.
still dare to warn eunice to watch out.
u better watch out if u dare do anything to my section mates.
Stop molesting jessica.
She doesnt like u.
touch touch touch.
Nobody is biased towards cute juniors.
ae u practically jealous?
zzzz
forget it.
i shall not have a bad impression of this band camp thanks to u.

in conclusion, i still enjoyed band camps w/ juniors ^^

Monday, June 1, 2009

did not get back my i/c cos got some problems.
did not get back my report book cos i skipped cca and conduct was poor =.=

ranked 18/38 in class
143/197 in level =.=
but there was improvement in results ^^

tmr going camp le.
dun even know whether i am included in it...
but still...
i'm miss u ppl ^^
missing my dar, my room, laughter, outings, nice food and computer D;



♡ When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

♡ When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

♡ When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.

♡ When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.

♡ When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

♡ When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

♡ When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

♡ When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

♡ When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....

Find a guy ..

♡ who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

♡ who calls you back when you hang up on him.

♡ who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy ..

♡ who ... kisses your forehead.

♡ who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

♡ who holds your hand in front of his friends.

♡ who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

♡ who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '






哪有爱情层不让人掉眼泪。。
哪有爱情曾不吵架。。。
哪有男女是完美的。。。
没有一个人是完美的。。。
只要多包容多爱护对方。。。
彼此的关系就会长久了。。。
有时候。。。
不多见面会好一些。。。
应为不会多认识对方。。。
不会完完全全知道对方的缺点。。。
应为少见面所以会多包容。。。
应为少见面再会多爱护，多体谅。。。


this was random... LOL
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my holidays:
1 june- band
2 june- band camp
3 june- band camp
4 june- band camp
5 june- band camp
6 june- church
7 june- isaac birthday
8 june-work
9 june- remedial
10 june- work
11 june- work
12 june- off ^^
13 june- church
14 june- work
15 june-work
16 june- yuxiang birthday
17 june- work
18 june- work
19 june- work
20 june- church
21 june- work
22 june- work

that should be a rough idea.
work work work.
except for ppl's birthday, i off.
just ask me out and i'll gladly accept ^^
but let me know in advance thanks ^^