a weird title but i dun care.
there may be typo but i dun care cos i am rushing this post before i leave to meet dar.
Yesterday wasn't a very good day for me.
After exam, Dar came my school and Fetch me then we bus to bugis.
Went to eat and then buy his bermudas then went to iluma the new building to shop.
the security was asking us not to play xD
after that mrt to tampines cos i wanted to go the ikea giant and courts.
Spent a total of 4 hours plus there.i know what i wanted alrdy :D
$700++ saving it :D
i wan buy the pink laptop for myself as birthday present :D
HAHAH.
Went back home, mama scold again =.=
like as if the world is born to be my fault =.=
Dad came home and i went out and he scolded again =.=
Just because he thinks i am rude to mama.
WTF=.=
he knows what i am thinking and i dunno by where.
Mama may have happen to pass by my blog while using the com, they may have ransack my things and found my diary like they always did last time to read it.
Yes dad, you know what i am thinking.
You told me that is i dare run away , you'll catch me back and put me in the girl's home till i am 21.
Dun say it do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i had enough.
Everyday anyone come home, it'll be my fault again.
Yes mama, you say no matter what you guys do, i always think i am right.
Have you ever thought you were in the wrong also?
Maybe we are just not fated to be families.
Just call the police NOW and bring me in.
You have been saying this for more than 5 years.
Why dun u just do it?
I had enough.
You said it was my schoolmates, my church mates, my work mates who this attitude.
But have you ever thought it WAS U ALL ALONG?
nobody was to be blame but me and myself.
and you.
You make me hate you two more an dmore.
See how my bootlicker didi suck up on you two, see how biased you were?
Yes mama, you finally realised how biased you were.
You siad you gave me everything.
Yes, you gave what i wanted.
But dun i have to fight for it?
A computer, fancy arguing for 8 bloody months and after buying, you nag at me for 1 year?
Saying how i lied for it?
oh well =.=
I did not lied for it.
I just said i need it for project since u dun let me go friends house.
But dun tell me i have project all year round right?
gosh gosh.
Readers out there must be thinking what a bad girl i am.
yes i am bad.
I am evil
Nobody will understand how i feel.
Cos u guys are not me.
I tried, it didn't work.
SO the words Dad and Mum never came out of my mouth to them cos i dun regard you guys as my parents.
I treat you guys as my close friends.
what did you treat me as?
a debt collector.
Yes, we've sort things out.
and dad FORCED me to promise that i'll treat them so nicely.
People, if one day i lost contact for 2 days then you know i am in the girls home :D
i wun regret cos i know even if i suffer there, i'll still love it more than i love home.
althought there are curfews, i'll get scolding but it is not from my own FAMILY so i wun mind.
i get looked down, i dun mind cos they are not my family.
who are they to judge?
I MADE UP MY MIND ALRDY.
thats all ...
i'm sorry to disappoint you guys.
if you think i shame you guys, you can jolly well leave me.
不关天长地久，只在乎曾经拥
i'll always rmb you guys :D
i may not be 100% doing what i mention above :D
its just a 50-50 thought. :D
Labels: leaving this world witha smile
♥our lips must always be sealed
7:52 AM
Saturday, May 16, 2009