been a long time since i blogged. limited time so i have to blog dam fast.
Tue
Lit exam was a killer than emath.
after exam, went to compass walk while waiting for
dar.
Ate w/
maggie and
Jun Jie then
dar came den ate together.
I never eat.
After they left, Me and
dar went to shop for birthday cakes.
Took 27 to changi.
lied to
jer that we took wrong bus and he wan spon us take taxi xD
rich there, went to ntuc buy flour
Den forget buy lighter so went to vivo to buy.
Oh and
weixiang,
Isaac and some
jiing horng guy was there.
LOl.
Then took sentosa express there.
reach siloso beach, wing too strong so light up one lighter only.
ate 1/4 of the cake and 3/4 uneaten.
me and
weixiang never eat :D
Then they went round chasing him w/ the cake and i was left to walk =.=
I got no energy larh people.
LOL.
The took out flour.
isaac wante to pour on
jer but pour on
dar.
Then dar took it and pour on me zzz.
People started to pour on me... AND I BECAME A WHITE GHOST =.=
Went to toilet and i changed.
After that took express back to vivo.
Ate at sakae and my nice
dar was nice to pay for me ^^ LOL.
(actually my blog is blogging the details -,- )
The guys were being horny LOL.
Then jer went to sit w/ cookie monster to take pics :D
After that went to sky park play a while.
No wait =.=
They went to Toy "r" us.
play stupid hide and seek =.=
Then went to arcade and play till 9.45pm then we left.
Dar, wx and isaac send me home.
reach home, put down back ad say: i go down a while
ten i came and talk to them
flag their taxi and then they left and i cross the opp road and walk back.
Went home bath and slp.
Wed
Morning woke up and everything was ruin, wanted to left for sch and quarreled with parents again.
I really could not take it anymore so i sms dad the whole truth feeling.
And he was like: u wan go girls home? i fulfil you.
Me: yes, i want to go, just send me in
I was super sad.
it was my first time cry until like that.
Chem paper 1 houir, i no mood so did it in 15 mins.
After paper, sms dar.
Then went to compass w/ maggie.
Both of them were trying to c heer me up.
went to ate at mac then went to hougang mall and play like crazy w/ maggie.
LOL.
she cheered me up.
thanks love :D
Then buy ice cream and bus to kovan.
work was stupid. then we had break together.
get to the main point.
I told maggie, if i really go into girls home, the only onewhom i will dui bu qi is no one else but dar.
Not my parents.
mama did not agree of me goign to girls home so i ended up not going.
People out there reading, mus have think that i am a bad girl.
yes, i am evil, bad. the failure.
I have failed Life.
i am really tired.
i told mama, if u dun send me in, dun blame me for running away and then catching me go in. its too late too.
I am really tired.
Dar told me to tell my things out.
yes, i have problems.
Others have too.
rembering, i used to tell anvis darling.
but soon after, realising she have her own problems too
I dun wan to be a burden
Nice people like anvis, vk, maggie , dar and xin yi wun think its a burden.
But i find myself irritating.
I know i am stubborn.
thats my character.
God, let me die.
I am tired.
I no longer want this life.
Let me die and rise again as a new born.
I know its a selfish decision.
Its a long post.
If u ask me deep down, i really wish to live in a girls home but cos my life will be ruined.
i will have no future.
sian-ed...
I failed myself as a daughter
a good friend
a best friend
a girlfriend
anvis: hahah xD no way.and me and him dun look alike -,-
Labels: i hate myself.
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8:48 AM
Thursday, May 21, 2009